When we live on the surface of life and only allow ourselves to feel some of what we’re feeling, we will often repeat our current pattern endlessly and extend our current experience long past it’s natural and healthy life.
For example, a lot of people have died in my life and being allowed to dive deep into our grief is one of the best things we can do for ourselves. When we can cry, scream and rage at God, we are able to feel everything within us. We honour how we are truly feeling. And once we get right to the bottom of it, after a time, we will slowly start to breathe again. And when this happens, we will truly be able to go on with our lives. And if we don’t? The grief might never end.
Relationships and love are experiences that we cannot intellectualize or philosophize about. The only way to know anything here is direct experience. There is no such thing as “I would never…” or “I would love…”. We actually have no idea how the complex beings that we are will react when our heart-strings are pulled. It is only when we bring our whole selves to it that we learn anything at all.
However, if we don’t bring all of us to the experience, we end up only living a fraction of what is happening. We will ignore our true feelings for the sake of an ideal or a good story. We will only share so much because we are afraid. We will hold back parts of us and therefore not connect deeply.
Then we have to ask ourselves why we are doing it at all. Are we even living?
Why are we not allowed to bring all of us to the game?
Why aren’t we allowed to fully play?